Results

The results of the amnio are preliminary, but they are so far good. It looks like baby does not have Down Syndrome or any other chromosomal disorder. Great news right? But why do I still feel like my heart is missing a piece. I know that God knows all things. I know that everything happens for a reason, but ...... I don't know. I guess that since I still don't know why, its hard to understand. Everyone is praying for us and I can feel it. I have prayed too, but some days it is really hard. The question WHY? keeps coming to my head.

Unltrasound #3

So, today is a very emotional day. Where do I begin? ...... How do I begin? This is too much. Yes .... I knew that something wasn't right. That was a given, when things are all fine and dandy, they don't beat around the bush. We met with the Neo-Natal doctor at the Hospital today. First they had us go in for another ultrasound. Yeah, that was fun. To just lay there again while this person I don't know looks at my baby, for something. So, he told us that our baby will be born with a Cleft. And since we have other, as he called, "anomalies". There is a higher chance that our baby will have other chromosomal disorders. He offered us an aminiosynthesis to rule out Down Syndrome and a few other things, we decided that we should go ahead and have it done. So not fun. The needle is huge, yes huge it really looked like it was a foot long and the width of a spaghetti noodle. I don't think those are its actual dimensions, but it sure looked and felt that way. I am not going to lie, I am scared. Tears are still flowing.

Second Ultrasound

Okay, this is becoming a little ridiculous. Once again they need us to go back in for another ultrasound. What is going on? They wouldn't tell me, so I called Jon and I just couldn't hold back the tears. He said he would call and find out was is going on. But they won't tell him much either. So we have an appointment to see the Neo-Natal doctor and also to have one more ultrasound next week. All I can do now is pray. Thoughts just keep running through my head. I hate this. But God knows all. Praying for peace of mind.